Michele

I just feel like crying, you know? Just feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. I will do my best - and hope that it's good enough. "There is NO SPOON!" has not been forgotten - what the heck do you think got me back to school in the first place? LOL. I'm just stressed and frazzled right about now...I need a good night's sleep, a dreamless, sound sleep - and then go into the test and do the job I know I can do on it. And Karen, you're right - no second guessing. At least we don't have to write a 5 page illustrated essay for the final...those killed me. Would take more than a hour to do. At least I don't have to do that. Just 10 mini essays...with illustrations. I think I'll go eat chocolate, grab a kitty, and crawl into bed. maybe I'll get to sleep before 1, seeing as I have to get up at 4:30. Test is at 9:15... Thanks for the encouragement, you all. I will live through it. Just how well I'll do is left to be seen. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Biscuits. It was what first came out of the freezer, so I figured that was good enough. Sigh. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I have my final final tomorrow (thanks, Jaytee!), and I've been studying for it since last week. I'm about dead. If I don't know it now, it's just not going to get learned. I just can't study anymore. I'm done. My brain is throwing back the little factoids I put in it. It's, like, brain vomit. It won't stay in. I am sitting here, discussing "lub-dub", axons, tubercles, and cochleas with my cats. I'm insane (and yes, I voted in that poll...). I am about ready to explode. Even when I lay down to sleep, stuff runs through my head. "Ah, man...what the heck are the hormones that the adenohypophysis puts out again?" or "talus-navicular-calcaneous-cunieforms." "Meissner is top, pacinian is bottom." It's too much. I can't take it any more. And about 20 minutes ago, it stopped making any sense (like it made much sense to start with. Sigh.) So please wish me luck tomorrow morning - I need an A to get an A in the class, and it's a rough, rough final. 200 points, and I need just about all of them. And I can't think straight right now... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

If stuff isn't falling from the shelves, I tend to ignore them...you'll learn to do that, too.

When Simon was a wee bitty 3 week old kitten, he thought that being in my bra was the most coolest thing he could do. He was warm, safe, and snuggled...

Happy birthday, Mike my friend. May you be blessed with many, many more...all happier and healthier than the last. Hugs! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Just to be clear here, I don't give a flying rat's ass what they're called. In that thread, however, the comments were leaning towards "well, they're prostitutes, so..." which showed me that a disrespect was occuring. That's the only reason I made my comments - irrespective of what they do for a living, they deserve common human respect, and are the victims of a violent, brutal crime. It doesn't - and didn't matter - what someone calls them, as long as the basic respect is afforded. That's the issue in my view. As for PC, I think it tends to be a bit confusing...but I'm intelligent, and can generally suss out what people are discussing. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

YAYAYAY you! Welcome to the sky, and what a great way to start the New Year! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Jayruss, I am not disciplined enough to remember to return them after three months... So that won't work for me. I'd forget, and end up buying them. Might as well buy them to begin with, you know? Dave, it is the way of college students. I know this, but it still doesn't make shelling out nearly $800 for books - let alone any other attendant costs - easier to swallow. I am going to sell back my math and poli sci books, and see if that doesn't cover the first set of books - the chemistry ones - that I need for intersession. Hopefully it will, but if it doesn't, well, then I dip into the electric bill money. Sigh. But hey, it'll be fine in the end. I will have gotten an education, be doing something I want to do and can see myself doing for the next 25 years, and that's the big picture. I have to see the big picture. I really have to just remember the big picture... I'm still wondering if I really need those english books...I'm taking the class on-line, so it's not like she'll see if I have them or not, you know? That would make a big difference in costs right there..... So I'm off to my Poli Sci final tonight, and then my written anatomy on Thursday morning. I don't figure I'll get too much sleep between now and then, so wish me luck. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I don't have time to play games. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Newest favorite: Christmas Canon Rock by Trans Siberian Orchestra. Old time favorite: The First Noel when my Mom played it on the piano. A good rendition of Oh Holy Night will make me stop in my tracks to listen... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Any more updates? How is everyone holding out? Hugs and prayers, Chris. Always. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Of course prayers and vibes to you, Chris, always. He'll be fine... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Hjumper33 and Heather, thanks for those sites. I'll look into them before I buy any of the books at the bookstore. I can get the ISN numbers from the website for school, so...it's worth a little checking (especially if I can save that much $$!). The books that are most expensive will be used extensively - the sciences books. So I need those without doubt. None of the professors I had this semester did anything along the lines of handouts, and all referenced the book during lectures. So I think the classes I'm taking tend to use the books pretty extensively, you know? Still and all...$177 for english??? Again, thanks for the links. I appreciate the help very much! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Slotperfect, I will look and see if I can't get what I need there. There has got to be a way to not pay those costs. Lis, I already spoke with the instructor. She wants me to have them all, even if I "don't think I need them." She says no-one is that good off the street. I am not looking forward to this class..... ..... ... Sunnyone, I am in sticker shock right now. And I can't bargain with these sellers... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Two I can. The others I can't (lab records and experiment logs). One I want to keep for reference (Anatomy), and the lab manual I borrowed from the instructor; that goes back to him at finals. I can sell the math book and the poli sci book back, but that's less than $100. So I'm still screwed. The books I have to buy for these next two sessions can be sold back, though, at least partly. I might want to keep the micro and physio for reference, but the rest (including $177 worth of english reference books) will be sold back next June. But that still just sucks, you know? Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Yes. Then add in the stress of finals, and you've got me...a wild haired, wild eyed, just about insane woman who will brave an airport with her elderly father on the 22nd. I have just got to keep my mouth shut going through the security. Then home again, with four days off before my Chemistry class starts on the 2nd. I kid you not, if I survive this, I can survive anything. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Not allowed. I checked. The problem with the library is exactly what you said; they only let you use them there. Which wouldn't be such a problem if they were open 24 hours...but they're not. And I tend to get most of my studying done in the evening, as well as having evening classes 4 nights a week. So...well...there goes that. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Sciences, yes? The science books for me is what is costing the most. $177 used for one text...and then add manuals and lab logs, and it gets to about $230 before I get the required ones. Not the recommended ones, the required ones. And the text is used. Glad to know others are feeling the pinch too...I am soooooo questioning my decision to change my life and go back to school. Sometimes I think "what kinda fool am I?????" Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Then you owe him straight A's. And a giant hug. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Not us. We can only have them out for 3 weeks, and then we can't check them out again for a period of time. Not sure if it's the same for texts, but I'm pretty sure it is. I haven't included the "recommended" books, just the "required" books. So yes, I need all those books. As far as sharing them with classmates, it doesn't generally work that well. The person who owns it, rightly expects that they'll have it for exam preps and such. And that's one of the primary things I want them for; exams. And others you have to record experiments and lab work in, so you need your own copy. So no, sharing isn't really workable; not in these classes (microbio, physiology, et cetera). Yep, it is crazy. I'll just direct those who ask why I'm not jumping right now to this thread for the reason...I can't afford it. I had hoped I could get recurrent, repacked, and back in the air in April, but it just doesn't look like it now. Sigh. Maybe summer. Man, that's a long time away. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Dude...Channukah and Christmas, thank you! LOL!!! Dad's jewish, Mom's episcopalian, my brother's Christian, and I'm "spritiual." So basically the whole month of December we party. Kewlio! Student loan is a good idea; I'm finally approved for one, but the amount is still undetermined (and won't be until after the new year...so I have no idea how much it will be). Since I took 18 units this semester, will take 5 over intersession, and 17 units next semester, I haven't been selling houses. There is a reason I've gone back to school - it's so I don't have to be a realtor for the next 25 years... It's just a whole lotta money, irrespective of where it comes from. I've already informed the cats they need to learn how to hunt for their dinner. Simon laughed at me. Like pretty boy is going to hunt or anything. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

For those in college, how do you handle the book costs? I just researched my winter intersession class and spring semester classes, and for books only - and only the required material, not the supplemental stuff (which would come in handy), my book cost alone will be $783.25. $783.25. I *am* taking 17 units. 11 units are science with lab. But still. That's just book costs. That's not including tuition, or lab fees, or parking, or ASO, or health fees, or any of the other incidentals (like paper and pens...). And this is community college! How the hell am I supposed to afford this? Even buying used, I'm over $550. And some of the stuff I can't buy used (i.e. lab manuals, experiment logs, et cetera...). Good grief! I asked for Christmas that my family create an account over at the bookstore...but I don't think they took me seriously. I have no idea what I'm gonna do. I have to take these classes, but can I even afford to buy the freakin' books? Good Lord. Just thought I'd rant a little bit. I'm freaking out right about now. But I gotta go study for two finals...sometimes I feel like Scarlett O'Hara - "Tomorrow's anothah day..." so I'll think about it tomorrow. Sigh. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Lisa, got the pm...sent one back. Lemme know. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

"Yes, Mistress." Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~