Karen89

Thanks for fixing that for me! :)

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but if it isn't, please let me know! I have 15 jumps total. I had 2 tandems, one AFF, and 12 IAD jumps. I did the two tandems last summer. After the first tandem, I was kind of throw upy sick, and didn't really get that thrill that most people talk about. It was more like "what the hell just happened to me?" type of feeling. But I kept thinking about it...so I decided for my birthday, I wanted another tandem skydive. After that, and a few months of no work, I decided I wanted to jump solo. I got a job, and in November, I made my first IAD skydive. I'm hard to get really excited, but I will admit, I was nervous, but felt completely like I belong in the sky after that jump. I made another jump a week later, due to winds and weather. I slipped off the strut for that jump and didn't arch....kind of hard to think of arching when you slip. But canopy still opened fine. It became too cold too fast to be able to jump. In March, I traveled down to Florida and made an AFF skydive at Skydive City. Exit was good, arched pretty well, but forgot all hand signals..major fail and quite embarrassing, but I still pulled at the right altitude and made it back safely to earth. I had waited about 6-7 hours to jump, and was pretty worn out after. I had to leave the next day early in the morning because some family was picking me up on the way. I had a lot more money left over from vacation then I thought I would and about 3 weeks ago, decided to head back to my local DZ and continue with the IAD jumping.After 2 jumps there, my instructor decided he wanted me to do some practice pulls with the newspaper. I had a lot of jumps where I reach back and then my legs start to kick. I had two jumps, that weren't caught on camera, that I arched pretty darn good! They decided if I did one more good arch, then I would be ready for my first 5 second free fall! I was so excited, going to the dz yesterday. It rained for awhile, and then the sky looked beautiful and winds were only 8 mph. On the way up, I was thinking way too much. I always look down at my cutaway handle, reach back and grab the newspaper, and tell myself when I step out "Arch, reach, throw, arch again." But this time when I let go, I reached back and didn't feel the newspaper and that's where my mind kind of blanked and I dearched. The newspaper somehow came up and hit me in the face when my canopy opened and I'm there just looking at it disappointed. It's never happened to me where I haven't been able to pull it out myself.... The winds picked up pretty bad. I'm only 125 lbs, and the student canopy keeps me up in the air for awhile. On the way back down, I saw myself just being blown backwards, instead of forward. Not a good feeling. There's a corn field right in front of the pea pit, but I wasn't even going to land in the cornfield. My landing options were: Runway, stump, tiny bump with dirty and rocks, or a little grassy area. Luckily I steered myself to land in the grassy area. I am just really bummed I was only one jump away from free fall and I messed it up. Last night while driving home, I got a flat tire and I definitely cried a bit over my jump. It's really frustrating when you see other students that are on their free fall now, except they have 3-4 less jumps then you do. I've been thinking all day to myself...is this sport even for me? Maybe I just really suck at it. Maybe I should stop wasting my money and go buy some clothes that actually fit me (lost 30 lbs awhile ago) and spend my money on something else. But then I think back and all these memories rush into my head of being in the sky. I can't stop because of those memories. Sometimes the sky looks so beautiful, it breaks my heart. I need more of those memories. I can't give up. I don't care if I don't get to do my first free fall until 10-20 jumps from now. Whatever. I'm still learning other important things like steering myself to a safe landing, packing parachutes, and I had 2 stand up landings when before I was kind of butt sliding. I know, butt sliding= bad. So I'm glad I can stand up now. The thought of never jumping again is terrifying. This sport has changed my life. I've met so many awesome people through this. I wouldn't trade it for any amount of money in this world. I'm going to keep challenging myself and eventually, I will get there. http://www.youtube.com/user/forgetseptember/videos Here's all of my jumps but 3 of them. The last one I made yesterday I still need to upload. The 2 good arches I made, were not caught on camera, except one was sort of caught, but was from a jumper inside of the plane and you can't see my arch.

It can be pure torture watching others skydive and you can't...

Going to my best friends apartment. No idea how many people are going.

Yeah, it kind of was and still is. :( I'll get over it someday.

I have been known to sleep talk a bit. Though my parents are not my biological parents... It seems like anxiety is causing the night terrors at this moment. Thanks for the advice.

Yeah, I guess I should have known better to think that.

The awkward moment when the OP never thought it would go this far....

I HATE SNOW! The door would open and the world would be like "Welcome to Alaska!" hehe. no more silly men for me for awhile :) Tomorrow I shall look at the sky and put my altimeter up in the air and just pretend....and then realize I'm still on the ground and go back inside cause it's probably gonna be in the low 30's tomorrow. and then get tipsy with my mother.

Tis snowing here. :( I've only had 2 IAD jumps! I need to move to Arizona asap! and no mistletoe for me, because someone had to be lame and break up with me three weeks ago, haha.

It's me tipsy tomorrow. hehe

:D

Just a little bit, but I know I am getting my first altimeter tomorrow :)

Hehe. I've always had weird problems with sleep. Either insomnia, or just talking and slapping/kicking people in my sleep. Now this! Ahhh! The day I didn't jump out of the plane twice, I said in my sleep "There goes the airplane."

I'm not saying it was aliens but....

No. But he has been the first guy to treat me very good.

I had a rough break up about 3 weeks ago. I would still say I am in the grieving stage, but I am making some improvement. I can actually go outside and not feel so crappy. The thing I look most forward to is the summer...SKYDIVE TIME :) But anyways..since the break up I've had these night terrors. Sometimes I wake up to find myself crying and my mother asking if I am okay....I wake up and see a dark figure over my bed and I am freaked out as all hell. Sometimes I don't see anything or remember anything, I just wake up scared out of my mind. A few days before my boyfriend broke up with me, I had a night terror at his place. I woke up crying and saying "They are over there! Please, stop them!" and he said I was legit crying my eyes out and he thought a robber was in his room, haha, Funny to think about...but yeah that's how serious it is. Anyone else ever experience this? It's getting annoying. I start a job in a few weeks and have to get up early and I don't want to have this happening a few hours before I wake up...

I'm in Pennsylvania so I probably wont be jumping for awhile. Too freaking cold up there for me to be able to function on my own in the weather we are having lately. In the summer it is a nice vacation from the hot weather. If you don't mind cold (and I mean FREEZING COLD) do a tandem whenever, haha.

Sounds like a good first time video! Lol.

I remember saying once "This is a one time thing." I did two tandems...and then I decided I wanted to get my license. :) Hehehe. Enjoy your tandem and get a video! Always worth it!

Damn what if that happened with a tandem? This is such a stupid thought I'm having. Okay, so maybe the plane starts freaking out like that before you reach altitude and the student isn't hooked to the instructor? I did two tandems and we didn't get hooked together until 8,000 feet....And we were in a Cessna and I was behind the pilot. I am wondering why they never went over these types of things during tandem training? >.< I feel so dumb for asking this question. I don't plan on doing a tandem ever again since now I have gone alone..

That was terrifying.

Dealt with depression as a teenager. It got better the older I get. I just handle it in a different way as an adult. But I decided if I am having an emotional day, I will not jump while upset. If ever I am on a plane ride up, and I am on the verge of tears I will not jump.

Wow....I kind of giggled when the camera guy looked up at the sky like "I guess he isn't coming with us."

I post in there all the time. It's not private.