Ok, I'm risking being called "mental", but I have to ask; I've only done 4 jumps so far, but since my very first jump, it seems my perspective on reality has become slightly warped. I'm curious to know if these "feelings" happen to others!?!? When walking through long narrow corridors, and there are plenty of them where I work, I get the "urge" to just "jump" off of the floor and fly (drop) HORIZONTALLY, almost as though the floor is the edge of the plane and all I have to do is make a slight hop and I'll "fall" going forward, thats one "feeling". But that's not the one that scares the heck out of me. Just the other day, while visiting a friend at a hotel, I took the elevator to the 7th floor; coming off of the elevator I walked out to an open area with just a fenced edge, I could look downward and see everything on the ground, the parking lot, the pool, trees, etc. As I looked down, I kept thinking, "I could jump this". It was actually quite tempting, almost as a child looking at a roller coaster and saying, "Oh I HAVE TO RIDE THAT ONE!". Or like when you're dieting and a friend offers you some cheesecake. The idea that I could die just did not set in, as if the filter for preserving my life had been removed from my brain. I had to walk away from the ledge frightened that if I didn't, I might actually jump! Is this in any way normal at the beginning of a skydiver's journey ? ? ?