blightybloke

Quick tib bit of a background on me - I'm a MEI with ~2500 hrs. I've flown quite a few different plans over the years so aviation isn't new to me. I've done other somewhat "extreme" stuff before (aerobatics, SCUBA, back country snowboarding, ultra marathons etc.) I have 3 completed jumps, two rejected ones and 2 hours of tunnel time. My arch is weak but I can do all the basic maneuvers in the tunnel ok. I like all the technical aspects of skydiving but I get very anxious and nauseous the night before and during the drive to the dz. I listen and learn when we go through the flow but when I get to the door my mind goes somewhat blank subsequently my last jump I de-arched and one instructor let go and I sent myself and the other instructor tumbling, I did get it together and did my 3 practice pulls and pulled my own chute and almost stood the landing up but I failed that jump. I take it all very seriously (I rejected 2 jumps and rode the plane of shame down because I didn't feel like I could do what was needed of me) but also I'm not excited like I was for any of the other sports I've gotten into. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Are all these jitters a sign skydiving isn't for me any input is welcomed.