Hi again, I do not want to hijack this thread but thank you for replies and discussion. Sky_doggy, I have this book already. I was really good prepared to my AFF, book inclusive. I had to do it in that way otherwise I would never be able to jump first time. Yes, the first jump on a given day was always the scariest, but it was not much better after that really. I kept saying to myself that every next jump will be easier. The anxiety was always present. It was my instructor who kept me going. I had AFF tasks to do – so I went there and did the job. But without this additional push my fear had taken over. Yes, my AFF went well indeed. Ant this is why I am so annoyed with myself: once I left the aircraft, I was calm and focused. I remembered every word that my instructor said to me before and fallowed the jump plan. I understand what you are saying about fear holding people back but should I get past it each time just for sake of it? Possibly, I do not know. *** Indeed, a lot of fear can be interpreted as lack of reward for the activity, and thus be a reason to quit. I think that this is the point. I wanted skydiving to be fun and cool. What I did find was the fear. However there is a huge feel good factor and feeling of achievement after each landing that I miss most.
