hi kevin, i think you are like most of us newbies, harder on ourselves than others can be. I'm new too. Just botched my level 4 today. But thankfully i'm here to read the forums! :-) s'all good! Just keep going through things in your head, if you can get some books, read them. You'll do fine, just keep listening to your instructors and thinking about it. Things can and will go wrong up there, that's why we have to really focus on what the instructors are telling us. Thumbs up and just keep at it! Karen